Saturday, June 21, 2008 I wrote an entry to this blog from this very seat and computer =) im happy to say that i feel better than i did then... however im not sure if i am doing better. back then i was able to just come out and say IM STRUGGLING, HELP ME... i saw how deep a pit i was in and the way out.... im still in the pit, i still se the way out but it keeps getting deeper and deeper and i fall further away from my one hope of ever escaping. When im in church or when i am tired or sad or emotionally unstable or insecure or whatever else happens that gives me a good look in the mirror i see how pathetic and hopeless i really am without my Savior. however day to day life gives me a warped and distorted view of myself, like a fat kid looking in a funhouse mirror that makes him look well built. Im surrounded by fun house mirrors built by the Devil himself to keep me from seeing my need for Jesus and i want out.
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so back to my weekend! =D im killing time at our friends condo again with my family! so much fun! funny how everytime i come here i manage to write something this sober.
About Me
- David
- I tell you the truth, anyone who will not recieve the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it. (Mark 10:15)
3 comments:
Wow David, that's really deep, and it kinda encourages me. I know exsactly what you mean by feeling like I'm falling further and further away from Go, and Idk about you, but I always feel like it's just me. Everyone else has it so "together". It makes it harder when you live surrounded by such great, godly people. You start to compare yourself, and you deffinately don't measure up.
I'm starting to realise ,though, that I have nothing to do with anyone else's walk with God unless I am a tool to help encourage someone. All I need to worry about is me, and how I spend my time with God. Am I satisfied with it? Do I think He is? Do I always consider Him in everything I do? Questions like these are the ones that seem to be the ones that need asking. It's just me and Him. No one else. =) Anyway, Yah. =) Wow, I hope you don't mind such a long comment. lol!
Hey,
You know David.. (and Ang) everybody always seems so together on the outside, but inside they all feel the same. You two just keep following God and look to Him. Don't look around you at other people because they are feeling the same way you are no matter what they look like on the outside..
-Katrina
PS: I'm glad your having a really good vacation. :)
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