Vacation! =)

Saturday, June 21, 2008 I wrote an entry to this blog from this very seat and computer =) im happy to say that i feel better than i did then... however im not sure if i am doing better. back then i was able to just come out and say IM STRUGGLING, HELP ME... i saw how deep a pit i was in and the way out.... im still in the pit, i still se the way out but it keeps getting deeper and deeper and i fall further away from my one hope of ever escaping. When im in church or when i am tired or sad or emotionally unstable or insecure or whatever else happens that gives me a good look in the mirror i see how pathetic and hopeless i really am without my Savior. however day to day life gives me a warped and distorted view of myself, like a fat kid looking in a funhouse mirror that makes him look well built. Im surrounded by fun house mirrors built by the Devil himself to keep me from seeing my need for Jesus and i want out.

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so back to my weekend! =D im killing time at our friends condo again with my family! so much fun! funny how everytime i come here i manage to write something this sober.

Sick

Title says it all =| 

Tired should be added in since they usually come as a package deal.

So here i sit, sick and tired trying figure out what i thought was worthwhile to put up. 

The skillet concert was one of the best experiences of my life and kinda brought some things into focus, things that seem to be a part of me. =) that probably sounds stupid but when i was there i felt like the bands had the same idea driving them that i did.

ok its kinda too hard to explain so im not going to try... 

im done writing now.

rock star

New Title, new idea!
I asked one of my friends to check this out just so she knew about the events one day had brought me and how i dealt with them. She however went all the way back and one by one read what i had written. Now when i think of someone doing that it kinda bugs me because i dont even remember what i was like back then. what if i said something stupid that i regret now? but what she told me was very encouraging. Through what i had written she came to see that God is the safest person to fall back on in times of struggle. It made me want to do more with this blog than just tell about what happens day to day. dont worry thats still what ill do, but now i have a purpose behind it. =) so everyone, enjoy and Rock On!

-David