Dear Readers

So does anyone still read this? cuz if someone, anyone is still interested ill keep writing. if you are interested in hearing more about my life, then let me know. comment, call, write... whatever =D

so as for today, i am doing pretty well. =) its interesting whenever someone tells you something that you didnt know about yourself. I guess im not as well rounded a guy as i thought (and im not talking about body shape). sorry if i only seem interested in doing this or that with specific people. ill try to focus on other stuff too... not be too obsessive! =D

anyway, sorry im jsut rambling. talk to yall soon

Turkey Day?

... I dont get why it would be called that.... I mean we Eat the turkeys... we dont celebrate them... hahahahaha. wow... so this is my first post in... months? its been far too long since i told anyone who reads this what i have been thinking.
im kinda in a tight spot right now. I am in debt, and i still have to get presents for people for christmas... im hoping ill come out ok but... i dont know...
I feel like i have to argue with myself... it really bothers me. i know if i fully focused on God the rest would work itself out. and it would work itself out better than if i focus on it. is that concept clear? maybe not cuz its the opposite of how i would think it would be. basically it is this: "focus on yourself or anything else earthly (relationships, money, time, money, music, money, ect.), then those things will end up falling in on you. say you are obsessed with money. if you fret over it night and day, it can end up being *poof* gone. however, if you are fully focused on God, then not only are you totally safe (God doesnt ever *poof* gone.) but he can fulfill you in ways your money or whatever ever could.
So what are you thankful for? right now im thankful that God still wont give up on me. i really wish i could just stick with him.
thats all for now.

Dream Girl

Its true everyone! i didnt think this would happen until alot later... the reasons for that are my own... but its true. i mean it wasnt an immediate thing... took a few days for me to really get used to it. =) ok enough with the silly ambiguity! no its not a gf, i wrote my first song that actually has a tune to it... i need ot work with it alot... but yah... and it just so happens to be called Dream Girl =). ok... thats all folks

Stumbling Blocks

Or in more common terms... distractions. no? anything that draws our focus away from God. anything that tempts us to follow after that then stay in the arms of our creator. I had a short and intersting conversation on friday night... and ive been thinking about it. a stumbling block doesnt have to be necessarily bad. not in the slightest. but if it draws our focus off of God then it harms us. i have plenty of them... and i could probably defend each of them as just a hobby or interest that wont do any harm. But... i dont think ill do that... i think ill just be honest and level with you. i struggle too. alot. im often dissappointed with myself when i see that ive slipped away from God for silly little things. one of my main problems? music. (probably an obvious obsession if you know me) i love music. thats not a bad thing, as long as im controlling my interest in it and not visa versa (probably spelled that wrong). if i hear a song, and i like the sound of it... then it might be a good thing. if that song somehow violates a standard i have, then i can assure you it is a very bad thing. probably not for everyone, but for me, who cant get it out of my head and now has a violation in my system, it is. if this is confusing, paul says pretty much the same kind of thing somewhere in Romans 14... good chapter, you should read it. but music deffinitely isnt my only or my worst shortcoming. material possesions (aka guitars or cars) can catch me up in their trap pretty quick. Relationships can in some cases become a stumbling block... if im more focused on that relationship then on God, then it is.
The best way to avoid these stumbling blocks? focus your entire life on God... sounds hard... but if you try it... id be willing to bet you wouldnt regret it. like, instead of spending your time focusing on what she may have meant when she said such and such, or how your going to get a bill paid... give your worries to God, let him deal with it, and instead take some time and think about how much he must love you. go look at the stars, or feel the breeze, or let the rain fall down on your skin.... let God tell you how much he loves you... thats jsut plain addicting =)
but i think i got off topic there... oh well
ok... well i was supposed to go to bed 20 minutes ago, so im going to go brush my teeth and tell my bro to go to bed.
Love,
~David

Almost Home

Its been a long trip. i mean... yah it was really an awesome Vacation... but im ready to be home now. im ready to fall into my bed, or sit down at my computer, or even go out and lay in my hammock (dont i sound lazy?) but im Really ready to see all of my friends. it took me a while to realise how much i miss everyone at home... i mean yah i can focus on all the stuff out here... and thats ok... but it cant make up for you all. i miss sitting on the back porch with katrina and angie and playing their guitars =). i miss having tea time with the burgetts, and if im lucky play music with tyler or have a good conversation with jenna. i miss drinking oranges with megan at the basketball court and watching russell and andrew play. i miss embarking on the trek to the dollar store where we all buy candy and an ibc creme soda and walk back. i miss everyone.

a great vacation

i could easily call this trip that. so much fun stuff to do, amazing people to hang out with, and good conversations to be had. the Brasil Team was Awesome! i love all of them (that i met) and i really hope to see them again soon. its cool to get close to so many people at once.. but at the same time i really miss my friends at home. I cant wait to get back and see all of you =). last night, after i got of the phone (about 6 or 7 times with 6 or 7 different people, most of which were answering machines) my bro, preston and i went out in the rowboat across the lake. we almost got to the other side when this disturbingly eerie fog came up off the water. with the moon shining bright and the dark forests on every side, it created a creepy enviroment. then the loons out on the water started singing their eerie laughing cry. it was awesome! i mean it was like straight out of a hitchcock or shyamalan movie! night of the living dead scene or something. anyway... yah ok so im just rambling. love you all and cant wait to get back. thanks for talking to me jenna.

covenant life

strange idea isnt it? most of you probably dont even know what im talkin about... ok... long and short of it... im changing.... God us teaching me so much lately... he started with the book "Gods Gift to women" ... i read it so i could learn how to make myself a good guy for girls... cuz ... well yah... ummm anyway ill talk bout that later. but God opened my eyes through this book. i mean i deffinitely missed alot the first time through so im reading it again... but... i mean...uuuggghh... im rambling. ok . *ahem* The book has opened me to certain truths on how a relationship with God works, and how to follow that relationship, as well as how to relate to women in the way God designed we men to. i felt a little weird reading it.... but i needed it... I hope God continues to work with our relationship and so that it can be better. but ... i love it... talk to me in person or on the phone sometime and ill tell you more about it... i still need to figure alot of it out myself...

Audio Books, and storms

So over the last few days... or i guess just yesterday and today... i think... i have been listening to Dominion by Randy Alcorn. its pretty interesting, about gangs, and racism, and stuff like that... not my idea of a good read but its fun to listen to. also lately i made a big switch from listening to mostly metal, to love songs... wierd? i dotn knwo... i just notice stuff change in my life... not big things at all... just little things... you know... I miss God. i miss the comfort i used to find in him everyday. i miss laying in my bed and just talking to him. i miss standing in the rain until 11 at night singing my praise to him (i actually did that once). theres nothing like a storm to show Gods power. jenna and i were talking about that the other day. she pointed out a small part of the sky that faded to light. it was interesting... i meant to tell her afterward, but never got the chance... when she pointed that out... it got me thinking. even in the middle of the darkest storms, the thunder, lightning and rain, there are still patches of light... sometimes people are those patches of light in my life... the ones who will talk to me, encourage me to keep pulling myself towards God, or just to stop pushing him away long enough for him to pull me in. i just want to thank you guys for that... you know who you are most likely =) if you dont call me
~David

Struggling

so we're visiting our friends house right? one of those rich people rent for a week kinda places right? and... its kind of funny...when you have all this stuff... pool table, gaming system, huge tvs... i mean... its kinda hard to keep the focus right... but what its done for me... it has shown up what a struggle i am having and have been having long before we came here... this just helped me see it. seriously though... i need help... i need to come back to God, and get him to be my primary focus... i have friends who are there... or at least seem like it... i wish they could tell me how... "click your heels three times and repeat 'theres noone like God, theres noone like God'"... i mean seriously... if it were only that easy... i know im definitely not the only one struggling with this... but if i can get some prayer id appreciate it.
Thank you
~David

Mk Prom

wow... there is no way to describe how awesome it was! i mean... it was totally worth all the stress it caused... although i considered destroying my computer on the spot several times... it worked... and lots of pple have said it was like the best party ever... im still pretty tired though... yah... awesomeness... =)

May 27th

Today my school went on a field trip. thats what they called it... however it was more like we got on a bus, went to some place that has no value other than to those who consider history valuable, then went shopping... ok so i guess that is a field trip... whatever. i dont even know how to spell it... how dumb is that... St Augustine? St. Agustine? oh well. so... other examining the large fort, with many cannons to stick your head in and bathrooms that were pretty much just a room with sand on the floor (ew), we went through the local shops. im pleased to say i didnt buy anything... however i was out a good 2 dollars from loans before we left... one of which was stabbed and ripped in half and "magically" repaired thanks to the magician in one of the shops. one store, which i had been referred to by Mr. Firch, was probably the best. Its called Shades and Blades. it sells lots of swords, knives, axes, you name it. after we had pretty much finished shopping, i was walking over to where the others were eating ice cream, and i passed a guy sitting on the ground next to a wall playing a guitar and singing. i decided to stay and listen for a bit. he had a nice voice, and played the guitar nicely. the called me to leave so i pulled out the guitar pick i keep in my wallet and 75 cents. i had noticed he wasnt using a pick, and that is usually painful. later one of my friends was going back and i gave her a gospel tract to give to him (just what i had in my wallet) and one of the chaperones gave her one too. I asked her later and she had given him $6. that impressed me =). anyway... so after the long dull ride home, i continued my day on a given routine. (email/myspace, chores, whatever) today the whatever consisted of me changing out the strings on my guitar (which included taking the whole thing apart to get the remains out) and in the end it didnt accomplish what i had hoped because my Tremolo bar still doesnt go forward... oh well... i guess i just have problems. another interesting event today... when my dad came home he told me that someone (as he put it "a reliable source") told him that he saw me kissing a girl at youth group, and even when i told him that it deffinitely didnt happen, i dont think he believes me.... thing is i would know if i did that and i know that i didnt.... so its kinda annoying. well schools out in just about a week now... i cant wait.

~David Heckman