Unworthy

My path is set straight before me... oh God give me the strength to walk it truely. I see where you want me to go, and I desire to run headlong into the course before me, but at every fall of my foot, my flesh conspires with the devil to pull me down to my knees. When I've fallen I feel so much like you have given up on me and that I am left here alone to live. It leaves me feeling as though I have to try to run this race without your help, and when I fail to take even the slightest step forward I see how far I am from the goal! My path stretches long before me and I feel myself pulled back into the shame of my efforts. I push to stand and my work just buries me deeper in the muck of sin. At last it seems my struggles are purely in vain and I see no reason not to just give up the course entirely. I rise up, throw my hands to the sky and cry out my state: "Lord, I am broken, weak, fallen, and fractured! I cannot push through this endless race! I have no hope of winning, nay, finishing the course you have for me! I find myself utterly unnacceptable..." I fall to my hands and knees, ready to collapse in sorrow. Then like rays of warm sunlight on my deathly cold skin you take my head in your hands. I look up, and I see you, yes You my God, struggling ahead of me under the weight of a large wooden cross! I see that the path you trod is no longer dark and treacherous but clear, and I realize I am able to stand. You turn to me and say, "David, It is by my grace that you are made acceptable to me. While you couldnt save yourself I have reached out to you and taken you from this." I cried out to you "Lord! How could I ever accept this, I am in every way undeserving! I present a burden to you that you shouldnt bear!" ... But you only smile and say "Yes, my Child, But it is not in you that accept you, but in my grace. Follow me." Tears of joy stream unchecked from my tired eyes! A light I had never comprehended took root in my mind, and I ran headlong after my savior!
My path is set straight before me... Though I hope that I never take my eyes off of Him, I know that if I ever fall, His grace purifies me and makes me acceptable in every way to The father! Thank you Lord! "To believe, and consent to be loved while unworthy is the great secret"

-David