Monday, January 31, 2011

Windows and Mirrors


Windows and Mirrors

A mirror in my life is anything I can look at and find application. Anything I grasp or try to understand that somehow changes what I think or do. They're everywhere, you know? They can be drawn out from almost everything!

A window is different. Its a place thats somewhat free of the burden of application, more of a place set aside to just stand in awe! Take the word of God. If I look at the bible as a mirror, reflecting back at me things to change, things to love, things to understand, all of these are just things that I think on or act upon...

My gut feeling is that this is how ive ALWAYS veiwed the bible, but lately my heart has been LONGING for a window. for an escape from grinding through life with seemingly nothing to look forward to but more application. If I look at Gods word as a mirror this is all I can see in it... Me... me, me, me, me, and the world around me, and what I think of me, and what God thinks of me, and me! But what if I can change my mind to look at the word not as a mirror but as a window? maybe as a passing scene, not to be applied to the way you live, but to be simply enjoyed. Not to be recorded but appreciated. I think thats a place where I will be moved out of the way and Ill see God. Ill see His handywork and His presence.

One way of thinking about all this is the stars. I was out looking at them and they are just beautiful... but of what use are they to me? Can I use them to tell where Im going? yes! Can I memorze their patterns or even their workings? yes! But when I look at the stars is this my first thought? Do I look at them and immediately think of myself and how they apply to me? or do I just LOOK at them and see the uncanny and absolute beauty that is in them?

And all this just for little lights in the sky. I have before me a letter from God himself. The God who breathed a word and every star was placed! I have his word and when I look to it as a mirror, I only see myself. I only see what I want to change and what I should do and how I truly want to love.

But if I look to God's word as a window, I will see HIM. If I look to Gods word not as a place to find ways to better myself and try to grow and gain understanding of God, but rather as a place simply to gaze upon Him. Imagine yourself on an airplane, flying along at such a great height. Imagine just staring out the window at the whole of earth and the land of clouds stretching out before you. Do you try to count the houses or streets? Do you number the clouds? Thats foolishness! To look upon this land and sea and sky and simply Wonder at it all... thats what I long for. Thats what I want to find in his word! A place to fall back in awe of my saviors love!

Now all this isnt saying that the mirrors in our lives arent useful or even necessary. Timothy says that the bible is good for reproof and correction! But are my eyes on me or Christ in the book? On the window or the mirror?


Job 38:
3 "Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me."

4 “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.
5 Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
Who stretched a measuring line across it?
6 On what were its footings set,
or who laid its cornerstone—
7 while the morning stars sang together
and all the angels[a] shouted for joy?

8 “Who shut up the sea behind doors
when it burst forth from the womb,
9 when I made the clouds its garment
and wrapped it in thick darkness,
10 when I fixed limits for it
and set its doors and bars in place,
11 when I said, ‘This far you may come and no farther;
here is where your proud waves halt’?

12 “Have you ever given orders to the morning,
or shown the dawn its place,"
16 “Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea
or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 Have the gates of death been shown to you?
Have you seen the gates of the deepest darkness?
18 Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.

19 “What is the way to the abode of light?
And where does darkness reside?
20 Can you take them to their places?
Do you know the paths to their dwellings?
21 Surely you know, for you were already born!
You have lived so many years!

22 “Have you entered the storehouses of the snow
or seen the storehouses of the hail,
23 which I reserve for times of trouble,
for days of war and battle?
24 What is the way to the place where the lightning is dispersed,
or the place where the east winds are scattered over the earth?
25 Who cuts a channel for the torrents of rain,
and a path for the thunderstorm,
26 to water a land where no one lives,
an uninhabited desert,
27 to satisfy a desolate wasteland
and make it sprout with grass?
28 Does the rain have a father?
Who fathers the drops of dew?
29 From whose womb comes the ice?
Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens
30 when the waters become hard as stone,
when the surface of the deep is frozen?

31 “Can you bind the chains[b] of the Pleiades?
Can you loosen Orion’s belt?
32 Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons[c]
or lead out the Bear[d] with its cubs?
33 Do you know the laws of the heavens?
Can you set up God’s[e] dominion over the earth?

Psalm 19:
1 The heavens declare the glory of God;
the skies proclaim the work of his hands.
2 Day after day they pour forth speech;
night after night they reveal knowledge.
3 They have no speech, they use no words;
no sound is heard from them.
4 Yet their voice[b] goes out into all the earth,
their words to the ends of the world.
In the heavens God has pitched a tent for the sun.
5 It is like a bridegroom coming out of his chamber,
like a champion rejoicing to run his course.
6 It rises at one end of the heavens
and makes its circuit to the other;
nothing is deprived of its warmth.

14 May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart
be pleasing in your sight,
LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer. "

Phil 2:15

"That you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like STARS in the universe."



(all verse from NIV, Photo from spacespin.org)

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Unworthy

My path is set straight before me... oh God give me the strength to walk it truely. I see where you want me to go, and I desire to run headlong into the course before me, but at every fall of my foot, my flesh conspires with the devil to pull me down to my knees. When I've fallen I feel so much like you have given up on me and that I am left here alone to live. It leaves me feeling as though I have to try to run this race without your help, and when I fail to take even the slightest step forward I see how far I am from the goal! My path stretches long before me and I feel myself pulled back into the shame of my efforts. I push to stand and my work just buries me deeper in the muck of sin. At last it seems my struggles are purely in vain and I see no reason not to just give up the course entirely. I rise up, throw my hands to the sky and cry out my state: "Lord, I am broken, weak, fallen, and fractured! I cannot push through this endless race! I have no hope of winning, nay, finishing the course you have for me! I find myself utterly unnacceptable..." I fall to my hands and knees, ready to collapse in sorrow. Then like rays of warm sunlight on my deathly cold skin you take my head in your hands. I look up, and I see you, yes You my God, struggling ahead of me under the weight of a large wooden cross! I see that the path you trod is no longer dark and treacherous but clear, and I realize I am able to stand. You turn to me and say, "David, It is by my grace that you are made acceptable to me. While you couldnt save yourself I have reached out to you and taken you from this." I cried out to you "Lord! How could I ever accept this, I am in every way undeserving! I present a burden to you that you shouldnt bear!" ... But you only smile and say "Yes, my Child, But it is not in you that accept you, but in my grace. Follow me." Tears of joy stream unchecked from my tired eyes! A light I had never comprehended took root in my mind, and I ran headlong after my savior!
My path is set straight before me... Though I hope that I never take my eyes off of Him, I know that if I ever fall, His grace purifies me and makes me acceptable in every way to The father! Thank you Lord! "To believe, and consent to be loved while unworthy is the great secret"

-David

Saturday, November 21, 2009

What if I fell?

So today my brother, Mother and I went over to our Clearfield house to do some more cleanup before family comes for thanksgiving. I did a few easy jobs like pruning trees and hammering nails back into the fence first, and then I had to clean the gutters. I have never before today done this, and certainly not on two story houses. I am understandably nervous as I draw nearer to the edge to shovel out the pine needles and who knows what else is in the gutter. I reach forward and almost in response a wasp climbs up out of the pine needles I was reaching for. The idea came to me, what if i had reached straight into a wasps nest and gotten stung? what if I had freaked out and jumped up? what if in jumping up i accidentally lept off the roof completely? What if I fell?
Thinking this over tonight I thought what am I doing everyday to account for my living? Lately Ive been hitting a sort of Spiritual dry spot. I havent felt much movement or growth and its made me wonder. Sadly I havent really been helping myself out of this as much as I would like to say, but in the end isnt it really up to God where we are or not?

Ephesians 5:10-16
" Carefully determine what pleases the Lord. Take no part in the worthless deeds of evil and darkness; instead expose them. It is shameful even to talk about the things that ungodly people do in secret. But their evil intentions will be exposed when the light shines on them, for the light makes everything visible. This is why it is said, "Awake, O sleeper, rise up from the dead, and Christ will give you light."

Sin should have no part in our lives, and while we allow it we are sadly as said here, Sleepers. But Christ promises us that if we wake up and rise up then he will give us light... this point is so simple yet hard to relate. As long as we live in sin and let it control us then expecting growth from God just because we read his word every day and pray and ask him for wisdom is like asking him to shine a light for us and then purposefully shutting our eyes and stumbling again.
I really have become too comfortable with sin and let eat away at me.

Galatians 5:1
" So Christ has truly set us free. Now make sure you stay free, and dont get tied up again in slavery to the law."

and again in Galatians 5:16-17

"So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives. Then you wont be doing what your sinful nature craves. The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. these two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions"

and Finally in Galatians 5:24-25
" Those who belong to Christ Jesus have naild the passions and desires of their sinful nature to his cross and crucified them there. Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirits leading in every part of our lives. "

So where does this leave me? I know that I am struggling with sin everyday, and I know that I long to walk with God in every part of my life. I trust the Spirit to lead me out of sin and into an amazing relationship with him, I just need to follow.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

opportunity

Well well, where to start? My trip to Waukesha was pretty much awesome! got to see alot of old friends and make new ones! oh and the best part was my sister of course! it was SO good to see her and spend time with her =) it made me realize how much really did change when she left.
Visiting the school was really good for me too, seeing as I am planning on attending... it was quite the eye opener. Life back in sunny florida is so much different than what it was like up there! what really surprised me was that Waukesha really is a great opportunity to learn but it isnt a guarantee that I will learn... i guess... like its up to me and God... not like I can check in and leave fully established in my relationship with God.
just a bit confusing there but its alright =) since getting back i have been pushing a mad rush to catch up with my school. its been going ok but is tiring me out. definitely ready for the weekend!
Lockin! thats this weekend! sweet! im really looking forward to it, hoping it will be an opportunity to let Christ shine through me even though ill be very tired =)this morning my dad was telling me that it will be like a strategy on a battlefield. He will be teaching youth group, Tim will be on a bus with his team, and ill be at a lockin... all of us have opportunity to be a witness for Christ if we get out of the way =) yay
thats all for now

Monday, October 12, 2009

Anxious

I would say worried, but its not really worry thats got me feeling this way. As in, Im not worried about flying or missing flights or figuring out what to do without anyone there... because that would be foolishly forgetting how well God is watching over me =D

Matthew 6:26-34 25 “That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

31 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33 Seek the Kingdom of God[d] above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.


Sorry thats alot of verses but the idea its communicating is obviously that God will provide for us. So that means I really dont have to worry about these things. God will take care of it if I allow it. If I stress myself out to take care of everything, I may completely miss what he has planned for me. that would be awful honestly!

So I choose the word anxious instead, because though Im letting God take care of me I havent had much opportunity to be out on my own basically. Just thought I would share what I was feeling =)

David

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Quick, Slow, Slow

James 1:19-20 - My dear brothers and sisters, be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Your anger can never make things right in God's sight.

God brought this verse to my mind today while I was having a conversation that required patience... I wanted to be offended and go off on this and that, just because thats what felt right to me. But I allowed the Spirit to have his way and calm me down... it probably sounded strange to the person I was talking to, one moment I am just short of yelling at them the next Im trying to understand what there was to be offended at. God works in amazing ways.

James 1:5-8 really has been on my mind alot, just in finding stability in Christ and allowing him reign over my life. Also in asking for his wisdom to become part of me.

If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it o you. He will not rebuke you for asking. But wen you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do.

When I read this I long for not only the wisdom God promises but also to be settled in him. To be fully content just to put all my faith in Him as I go through life, knowing he will take care of me. And if my loyalty isnt divided, if I am not so easily tossed by every wind, then I can thank God and take rest in him.

Psalms 4:8 - In peace will I lie down and sleep, For you alone Oh Lord will keep me safe.

They all tie together for me right now... Living a stable life for Christ and putting my faith fully in him because he will take care of me. Now Im going to lie down and sleep! Good Night

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Crazy Love

Well, I finished it! What a great book and challenge for modern Christianity. Francis Chan really brought some things to light that impressed me and I will not forget for a good bit of time.
One thing that really seemed to stand out to me, whether or not it was pulled out as a point in the book is that I really dont "get it". Its like Im sitting back in my comfortable little life and letting so much pass me by. God has an awe-inspiring plan set out and for the sake of comfort I would rather pass it up. I cant think of a good analogy right here... all the ones I wouldve thought of dont work... but the idea remains the same... Im skipping out on true life for my cheap imitation. I havent let Christ live through me every moment and thus I havent fully lived.
Its very interesting that I started when I did not knowing that I would finish the night before the Beach Retreat... I hope I will allow Christ to have his way with not only this weekend but with my life.
Thanks for letting me borrow the book Skippy =D I loved it!